For those of you who might occasionally follow my random ramblings on Twitter or Facebook it will come as no surprise as to the title of this blog. For the rest of you who haven’t suffered the misfortune of following me on either of the two aforementioned venues I can explain briefly. There is a severe disconnect between my brain and my body when it comes to my presumed youth and correlative athletic abilities. Because of this disconnect, the last two weeks have become witness to me tweaking my hamstring and severely bruising my shin; all on my right leg (yes that is the same one I had an ACL repair on almost two years ago). And the sad thing about it…I plan on playing in our church league soccer game tomorrow night. I guess I am somewhat of a glutton for punishment and I kind of have a never say die attitude when it comes to my body (kind of an ironic statement). I think it all boils down to a lack of patience and a lack of waiting in and on myself, or rather my physical self, to let me know when it is appropriate to continue or not. I am a fan of legging it out/making the play/enjoying the game even if my body is not. To tell you the truth, it is actually kind of selfish of me. I rarely take into account those who could be affected by these actions. My family could even suffer if I put myself in a cast for a few weeks (God forbid). I could get carried away with the competition and fun of whatever I am engaged in and injure someone around me inadvertently through my carelessness. Or I could push myself too far physically and limit some future life goals set in place because I have burnt up all of my reserves too quickly. And all of this is born out of enjoying satisfaction in the now and not the later.
Don’t get me wrong. I believe that we are called to live in the moment. But I believe it is for the other and not for us. Take for instance all of this hullabaloo over “50 Shades of Gray” and Magic Mike”. Do I believe it is garbage….YES. But then again there is a lot of refuse out there. And for a moment, people buy into it. What is a little bit going to hurt? It’s just a quick fix. I think the problem with all of this trash and I guess sin in general is that it really is impatience and a desire for immediate satisfaction/power/control that wins out the day. If I read this book or see this movie or visit this porn site for a little bit of titillation right now then what is it going to hurt? The problem is that this is not life lived out for the other. And ultimately that is a life lived out of false hope.
I know contextually this may seem weird, but Isaiah 40:30-31 reads, “Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” Those who hope in the Lord. Those who wait upon the Lord. How can the immediate compare with that? I personally want to run and not get weary; to walk and not be faint. But if I am compromising the “best” for the “moment” then I am ultimately compromising my best self. Living in a society of instant gratification has cost us a lot, but maybe if we wait upon God in each moment then we can find ourselves again.